Baby #5!

You'd think that with having four under four, we'd be tired of kids by now, lol!  But no, not yet:)
I got my first bfp on Nov 27th, and what a surprise that was!
My first beta was on Nov 29th, and it was 98-I am indeed pregnant!
We are thrilled!  Another baby will fit into the minivan, our house, and our lives just perfectly!

My 2nd hcg was done yesterday, and I won't be getting results until tomorrow.  I really want to know, but part of me would rather wait if the news is bad.
I see my internist tomorrow morning, so I will know for sure then.

Part of me is hopeful, but the real part of me remembers hearing the news at 12 weeks, that our baby had died at 5wks.  I carried that little bean around for 7 weeks, never knowing what had already gone wrong.  I never want to feel like that again.

But then I look at these four beautiful miracles wandering around my house, and see that a term pregnancy is absolutely possible.  That hope is what gets me through each day right now:)