Wow, its a little surreal to actually look at my ticker! I remember how scared I was when we found out we were pg, not about the pg, but about perhaps living through another m/c. I had to make the conscious effort to remember once again, to be thankful for each day I was pg. I know it helped that I already had four living children who are so little, the hard part of my heart knew that if we lost this baby that we probably had more than we should expect. But the soft part of my heart really wanted us to have another bio child, and look at us now! 24days away from meeting baby Joseph Alec something J! Yes, our little man has a first middle name! We're calling him Alec after my dad's nickname, very fitting I think. One more middle name and we're good to go, lol! We are so in love with this little bean, dh and I are getting so excited to meet him! We are definitely kid people, we established that tonight. We know the reality of little kids, of nbs, of everything involved and how each child changes our own relationship. But its so amazing to hold another child, to have one more run up to you screaming your name, calling you through the house b/c they just need to know that you're there. Its amazing! I was so scared when pg with Nolan about how to parent; this time I'm a little scared of the first 12 weeks, from c/s recovery-but really that's it. I know the four kids will adapt, we are happy and they will be, too. A part of me is scared that something might be wrong with him, but I think all moms feel that way a bit, and we'd love him no matter what.
What a wonderful blessing to be able to have just one more!
eta-I adjusted the carseat straps and added the cover tonight, carseat is good to go except for installing the bases!!
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