8w3d

So far so good!  I've been feeling pretty well the past two days, still tired, lots of reflux when lying down, sleep is awful, and I think I have a headcold.  But otherwise feeling good:)  Nausea is less, bbs less agonizingly sore, but no spotting or cramping.  I'm still getting the nice tightenings, esp in the evenings, so praying beanie is growing.  Its the size of a raspberry now!  I lost some weight last week, and I'm feeling better on the insulin, much less swollen.

I can't recall, did I mention that Nolan wants to call the baby Eva or Wall-e?  He's serious.  I hope its a girl;)

Its really strange.  When I was pg with our first lost peanut, and with Nolan, I was in love with the idea of being pg.  All I could think about were all the firsts dh and I would share, how it would feel to go out with a new baby, how our lives would change.  This time, I already know all of the above, and I'm just excited of the prospect of another child-of getting to know another gorgeous newborn, and learn his or her little patterns, and see that sweet little personality develop.  The first time, it was more about having someone to wear sweet little outfits, and using a carseat and stroller.  This time its actually about the baby, and what he or she will add to my life.  Totally different perspective, and its so cool!  I was in love with the idea of being pg the first time, and now I'm in love with the baby growing within me-wow! 

But I'm also a realist; I know the first 12 weeks with any newborn are brutal, EBF is work, I'll be recovering from a c/s, I have no close family nearby willing to help more than 2 minutes, Nolan starts Kindergarten within four weeks of delivery, I'll have five under five in August-its gonna be tough.  But at 12 weeks, the sun will shine again-BF will be well established, babe should be sttn or at least have skipped two night feeds by then, I'll be recovered totally from my c/s by then.  It'll be good:) 

I can't wait to see what 2011 will bring!