Hosp day 21

Being discharged tomorrow.  I'm happy and nervous

June 13th

Mood has been low. 
Lots of triggers.
Seeing my therapists.
Locked keys in my office today lol

Rough few days

Found out some bad info Thursday.   Been upset since.  Not sure about outcome.  Very stressed.

Started my new job at GMU today!!

It was fantastic!!

HNY!!

Happy new year!!!
Spent the evening with Helen and Dennis at the Australian Bee Gees!!

Xmas 2016

Merry Christmas!!

At the in laws with the kids and xh.  Great xmas!

Ugh

Back at 230#.  Ugh.
My last weight wise class is in 2 days.  I had lost 11 lbs but gained 10 back. 
Ugh.

June 17th

227.8!!!
Today is day 3 of janas whole food plan

June 9th

229.8 this morning

June 8th

Been using my fitbit for a few weeks.  Started realky tracking since yesterday.  Done 3 of 12 weight wise classes. 
Feeling great!

May 27th

231.5#!

May 26th

I tried setting up my fitbit charge hr and my aria today.  Had to call customer service.  And I have to call them back today to set up my aria. 
233.4lbs

Today

105.8
Gotta keep loving myself and put healthy foods in my body.

Weight Wise courses

I did Getting Started on Tuesday and Stress management is tonight.  10 months post July referral to bariatric clinic. 
106kg

New year

106.2kg
Ugh.
I have zero motivation to exercise. 
My emotional eating is pretty much gone.
Must keep trying.

Thursday

Notice people's eyes Throughout the day, look into other people's eyes. Be aware of the colors in their eyes and the story those eyes are telling. Observe how you or the other person glances away. Notice what feelings come up when making direct eye contact. http://www.consciousday.com/current-challenge

Blah

101kg this am

It's so hard to stay on track with this healthy lifestyle change.  My pedometer is fairly happy with me.  It rained all night and day so walking was out.  And I was busy all day. 
Goal - eat 6 small meals each day

Day 32

I was 99.9kg this morning!!!
It was another low carb day. 
This one was hard.  Today I felt lonely and bored so I wanted to eat sugar. 
I was gentle with myself and had a few treats.  I didn't go overboard.  It's amazing how my feelings trigger my hunger.  

The kids start school tomorrow.   I am going to meet them to take some first day pictures.  I feel sad that they're not here tonight.  I'm getting nervous about court on October 1st.  I meet the lawyer tomorrow.  

Pretty productive day.  Slept in til noon.  Ran to michaels and walmart for white ink and groceries.  I collected ten articles to read at the library tomorrow.  

I can keep myself busy so that I don't have to look at my feelings.  I'd rather eat or shop.  But I can be sad or glad and be okay.  It'll all be okay Marie. 

The kids will be home in ten days. 

Day 31

100.6kg this morning!!!!  I'm in the 100 zone!!!  And yesterday I wore size 14 jeans!!
I made a hot supper of chicken, salad and vegs!

I am so proud of myself!!

Day 30

It's another low carb day. 
101.2kg
Man I really need to get into 100
Kg.  I can't plateau here.
It was very cold and rainy yesterday so I didn't walk.  And I'm not sure if the pool is open yet. 
Today I should try to do a mall walk maybe.
Another low carb day might just get me down that little bit. 
The lowest I've been was 80kg in February 2009.  Then we adopted the twins and I went back up. 
Yesterday I went to the library and read 5 more articles!!!
It was easy.   5 articles are manageable.   I need to start taking notes.  In the next few days I will start.
I jounalled this am while listening to my crystal bowls cd.  It's a nice way to start my day.