So after thinking and praying last night, I woke up with this thought: What if its not about forgiving and forgetting, but about something I can control: gratitude. Forgiveness I don't need to worry about, that's God's job. Forgetting, well time tends to take care of that itself, so I don't need to worry about that either. The only thing I am responsible for is being thankful for everything I receive, either gift or lesson. My job in this situation with C is to be thankful for him in our lives, in my life. He has taught me so much about my husband, myself, friendships, loyalty, lack of professionalism, and being a questionable spouse who controls--this entire experience has made me look at myself, do my work and reframe my life and marriage, even my parenting. Wow. What a gift he's turning out to be!
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